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Unforgivable
04:12
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there's not a manual for this kind of thing but i've been doing some reading
there have been people like me since they could slither through eden
and i can try real hard to go against my nature but there's only so much i can do
i am still a scorpion
and then there's you
i'm scared that i am gonna ruin your life
and you'll still try to forgive me for the unforgivable
i know it seems like i'm always picking fights
i just want you to confirm what i already know
no one who has known me has loved me
i am evil
it's not worth the debate anymore
do you want to spend your precious time taking care of me
when i can't stand myself anymore
i wouldn't ask you to do that
frankly, i don't deserve your grace
i wouldn't ask you to do that
god, please take this burden away
in my defense, i tried to warn you what i'm capable of
i guess it's not the kind of thing that youyou believe until you see it in action
i tried my best to leave you out of it, but the dark always bites back
until suddenly you're part of the aftermath
i'm scared that i am gonna ruin your life
and you'll still try to forgive me for the unforgivable
i know it seems like i'm always picking fights
i just want you to confirm what i already know
no one who has known me has loved me
i am evil
it's not worth the debate anymore
do you want to spend your precious time taking care of me
when i can't stand myself anymore
i wouldn't ask you to do that
frankly, i don't deserve your grace
i wouldn't ask you to do that
i am a burden, god, take me away
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Get Better
03:38
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i am dizzy, i have lost sight of the ground
i'm spinning out of control
and if for some reason you're still around, you still can't make me whole
i have hurt all that i claim to love
and i can't keep the wolves at bay
now it's not just my blood
and i don't know what to say
i'm sorry, it just slipped out
if you didn't hate me then, you're gonna hate me now
but if you told me how to get better, baby, better's what i'd be
there is nothing i need more than you loving me
i will get back up, get better, baby, better's what i'll be
so tell me what you need for you to just not leave
i am holding a knife to your throat
the other side's pressed to my wrist
too scared to move a muscle
i'm sorry, i didn't mean it
if your well of grace has run dry, just give me a call
i'll leave you alone for as long as you want
i would fix it if i knew what was broken
but you can't hate the bloodstain when the wound is still open
but if you told me how to get better, baby, better's what i'd be
there is nothing i need more than you loving me
i will get back up, get better, baby, better's what i'll be
so tell me what you need for you to just not leave me
god i just can't take it
making you bleed for me
strip my spirit naked, take what you need
know that all i ever wanna do is make this worth it for you
if i knew how to get better, baby, i'd get better for me
but that's never worked before, maybe you're the missing piece
what if i can't get better, baby, would you stay with me?
there is no right answer
i'll love you if you leave
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Stardust
03:59
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why do i feel guilty
for something i could never change
someone tell my mom i'm sorry
i can't look her in the face
why do i feel shameful
i've done nothing deserving of shame
will i collapse my ribs in on each other?
i won't defer the blame
'we're all made of stardust'
yeah, that sounds like bullshit to me, too
did the moon smile and say she loved us?
did jesus smile too?
i wash my hands over and over again
maybe if i wash them enough, it'll look like my skin
but i don't think it's wrong the way it is
you just can't see it the right lighting
if i wasn't sure, i'd keep my mouth shut
if i wasn't positive
if i wasn't sure, i'd keep my mouth shut
if i wasn't positive
if i wasn't sure, i'd keep my mouth shut
if i wasn't positive
if i wasn't sure, i'd keep my mouth shut
if i wasn't positive
i try to stay out of the floodlights
their fluorescence hurts my eyes
and i can feel whatever's inside me
eating me from the inside
and it crawls out of my throat
and it's a blight upon the earth
and i can feel you staring at me
is this what my whole life was worth?
and it's like you've seen me naked
nailed up to a cross
will you drive your spear into my ribs and tell me all is lost
could you tell me all is lost?
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Old Wound
03:05
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if you had told me when i was sixteen
in two years, i'd be kissing her under the trees
i'd say 'i hope you're not lying
i can wait two years, that's fine with me'
if you had told me when i was eighteen
that my love would betray me, i'd call you crazy,
i'd say 'no, she'd never hurt me,
she is the songbird and i am the breeze'
and i don't know if she still thinks about me
i don't get how she couldn't
but i understand why she wouldn't
i spared the details, but i told him about her this week
it's an old wound now, it doesn't sting
if you had told me when i was nineteen
someday i'd hear her name without wanting to throw up
i'd try to call your bluff
'cause i gave her everything, but it wasn't enough
if you had told me when i was twenty one
something worse was coming, or, rather, someone
i'd say 'i think i know who you mean
but i still can't leave her, and i won't change a thing'
and i don't know if she still thinks about me
i don't get how she couldn't
but i understand why she wouldn't
you know all the details about her and what she did to me
someday it'll be an old wound and it won't sting
it'll all heal over, scar tissue, i won't feel a thing
someday it'll be an old wound and it won't sting
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